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| I know I may sound a litlte silly saying how much doing these updates turn me on, but I am totally serious. You have no idea how much it does. It is almost like I am performing for someone...in some weird and twisted way I kind of feel like a porn star...at least for a moment. |
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I always did admire their ability to just be so confident and open sexually. It really does take a certain kind of person to be able to pull off being a porn star. And it's easy for me to fuck Brian cause we are together....but I have a deep down fantasy that would LOVE to just be able to go up to a complete stranger and totally rock his world, without even feeling shy about it. |
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I swear the next time Brian and I hook up like this, I am going to make him wear a mask and go by a different name! Damn it, if I am going to have this fantasy over and over again, I might as well be able to live a little bit of it out right. Or you know what has also really interested me...was the idea of the glory hole. Have you ever heard of that before? |